Contentment > Having it all

These are Pinterests I would like to make/have, as well as a long ramble of thoughts:










I'm in love with throw pillows like these.



My guest bathroom is yellow/gray (a color combo I love and finally just did it), I would like something like this for the wall.











 
 I really want this for my tub








And this for my entrance


And I want to make a stack like this, I actually bought some things to try to make it. We'll see if it actually happens.


I could spend all day posting pictures of things I like.

The appearance of my house (apartment) is just like my own appearance, I'm still trying to find the balance of making it look really nice and modern without becoming obsessed with things that really don't matter and without beating myself up and comparing myself to others. Sometimes I have to limit my Pinteresting or fashion/home decor blog browsing, which I don't do much in the first place, because I'm human and I know I can become unhappy with myself and what I have pretty quickly if I'm not careful.

I could pretend that because I am a Christian and love Jesus with my whole heart that I never have problems with jealousy or insecurity or discontent, but that's simply not true, those are things that I struggle with as a woman and have to let Jesus gradually teach me to overcome.

I know that making myself look as good as possible is important, it's important in respecting my husband and in representing Christ. As is using creativity to make my home welcoming and attractive. However, just like with all good things, if I let myself become wrapped up and consumed in those rather than Christ I turn those good things into bad.

Thoughts From Today

When I was a kid sometimes when thinking about the cross and Jesus' sacrifice I would think, "Well I would die a horrible death on a cross so that everyone in the world could go to Heaven too." Immediately I would feel guilty for thinking that, of course, but besides all the obvious flaws in that thought, this is the one that lately has just been amazing me over and over.

Jesus died on the cross so that we could even choose to go to Heaven. He died simply to give us the choice.

He took the world's sin and died so that millions of people could shake their fist in His face, yet never lose their option to turn to Him. 




Also today I was so convicted by the thought that

After Jesus went to enormous lengths to make it ridiculously simply to commune with Him, tearing the veil and ripping down every barrier, how can I complain that I am too busy, or too distracted, or that it's too hard to spend time with Him? 

God, I am so sorry for every time I make excuses to ignore You and fail to make You a priority.